GETALIFEDUDE.

I don't know what to say, I need a break from all these.

GETALIFEDUDE? ; *3:36 AM

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I'm really confused. I don't know what to do, there's nobody for me to talk to. Being the middle person, stucked between two friends is really horrible, it sucked. The feeling of being 'snatched' between two friends isn't exactly as nice as I think it should be.

Tessa don't know how to talk to sf cause sf betrayed her, yet she have to pretend she don't know anything.

Sf says tessa's unhappy with her cause she's talking to me.

Sf says tessa want me to herself.

CONFUSED, REALLY CONFUSED.

Sf doesn't have the right to say tessa want me to herself cause she herself wants me to her as well. She's going to be cold to me for today to let me talk to tessa. Holy.

You totally have no idea how i felt. I feel like a doll, being manipulated by you. I didn't dare/want to argue back, and that's the reason why we don't quarrel. I've always tolerated you. Not wanting to quarrel with you is because I don't want to lose you once again. Please know your limits.

I have to be very careful from today onwards when I talk to the both of them cause both of them tell me tales about each other. I hope they will be as close as ever again. I rather be the one left out, than having to go through all these.

GETALIFEDUDE? ; *12:08 AM

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Vivo to meet Krav today. We planned to study yesterday and today, yeah, PLANNED. But failed. Haha. Headed to Queensway, icecream and sweet corn. I LOVE SWEET CORN.
I spent more than 10bucks on food today. Over budget already lah!
Subway, 5.10
2 corn, 3
icecream, 1
chuan chuan, 2
bble tea, 1.50
shit man.
I really need to start my homework. I SWEAR.

Over you already lah. Never message then never message lor, so much excuses, what phone spoil. Lick my ass man. Go back to joanna's side, go go. I AM NOT GONNA BE HER SUBSTITUTE.

GETALIFEDUDE? ; *7:29 AM

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Hi blog, I'm back. This is a freaking hectic week.
Monday to Wednesday occupied for first aid. I fell asleep many many times. And my 'no money buy pen ah? cheapo sia.' thingie became joke of the day. Haha. The instructor's a nice guy, he passed us though our CPR cannot make it. (:
Thursday and Friday occupied for HPB. HPB's quite slack I must say, we get to play and sleep. Tomorrow's HPB will be Kid's at play. Let's see how boring it gets, and how pling's gonna be pangseh-ed.
Oh, I went Joey's chalet yesterday. Sf attitude again. Wth. Dude, you NEED to change your attitude. I help her peel prawns and she attitude'ed me ask me bring the prawns to her. Do I owe you or something? Just because we talked to Ak you attitude us. You don't like her doesn't mean we also must don't like her right? You don't have to be that demanding and overbearing. I've been tolerating if you didn't realise. I know you're still kind of angry now cause you didn't wtalk to me online. Stubborn leh you!
'Sneaked' away to pass Ang the chocolates. I hope I didn't embarrassed myself, I hope he finds me okay or above average. Shit, I think I totally screwed everything lah, my hair like siao and I wore the yellow fox singlet with green shorts that totally sucked. :( diediedie, if he have a negative comment about me, I can say byebye already. He's a good catch, fitting almost all the qualities I want my boyfriend to have.
- taller than me
- cute/not bad looking
- can protect me (i hope so, cause he knows muaythai, haha.)
- etcetcetcetc and the list goes on. Haha.
Oh well, the joanna officially dumped him. He's hurt, he's sad, I know. I wonder if what he told me was true or was he just playing me. He told me about the slight depression, wanting to die and stuffs. I really cannot make up my mind whether to believe or not. I have a feeling he's just making up stories. The smses are getting lesser and lesser each day. And he really really really, i swear REALLY, that he mei you dan. SO timid lah! He don't want come and find me to get the m&ms and I stupidly went to pass it to him. YES, STUPIDLY. Call himself a guy. GO AND DIE!
It's friday tomorrow! I'll be meeting love and ak after HPB to eat mussels! YAY, let's see how's the progess of the smses going on before I decide whether to go up to the gym or not tomorrow. TEEHEEHEE.
Stayed over at love's house last night and we waited 75mins for mac delivery. I swear my tummy was going to explode. Haha.
GOODNIGHT.
Oh, dear phone, you better start to ring now. ((((:

GETALIFEDUDE? ; *8:16 AM

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Hi new blog.

After hearing what love read to me in her private blog yesterday, I think I'm real fortunate. Although my parents gave me curfew and stuffs, but I know that they still care and my family is still in one piece.

Love, be strong alright. I know you're going through a lot now, your family, friends, relationship and stuffs. I know you're always putting up a strong front, acting very happy. Well, you can tell me anything and they will be safe with me. Fear not, cause you know that I will always be behind you, supporting you in whatever you gonna do. I love you tessa. JIAYOU!

Although me and love are like very close, and I know I can tell her anything, I still feel something between us, obstructing us to grow closer. She is a really good advisor and listener, without her, I don't know how I'm gonna survive those days without sf. I really love tessa tan many many (:

It was really shocking to hear that Ivan and tessa end up this way partly because of me. I swear I didn't expect Ivan to be so over-sensitive. HELLO, I'M A GIRL LEH. Tessa spend time with me you also jealous. Wth. However, I'm still sorry.

I don't see any bad points in staying single. Maybe I'll consider staying single for the rest of my life. HAHAHA. You can survive being single, but you cannot survive without family love and ONE true friend. Just one is enough.

And ANGJIAHAO, you think you cool ah? Giving me hopes and then bursting it the next day. I don't know when to trust you, when not to. But I'll always remind myself not to put in too much feelings otherwise the one who gets hurt will be me and only me. When are we going to be together? Hahaha, you're seriously a good catch I must say.

GETALIFEDUDE? ; *1:22 AM

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TESTING.

GETALIFEDUDE? ; *1:15 AM

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